So now I'm in a mood.
Rethinking things I've long been settled about.
For instance,
that it was all about the misery and not fitting in.
that it was all about the rejection.
that it was all about the longing.
that it was all about the need.
that I would never rise above it while accepting it.
that it all had to be put in a little place, indexed and placed in the card catalog.

Then I found something out.
And it's time to think hard.
And it's time to think long.
Because the time is twisting away in both directions,
like a piece of lace,
unravelling
and I can't keep repairing while striding on.