Was hoping to approach today refreshed, but instead spent the night in the rapture of the kind
of anxiety-inspired dreams I had when I first took this job. No doubt a bit of transference. But it still sucks. Because now I am tired, and will be more inclined to be impatient and cranky with stupid repetitive questions. There was no one to answer mine back in the day. So they went unasked, and I found the answers. I hate being a crutch. But it also matters to me for some inexplicable reason, that this person be enabled to succeed. Sense of fairness and all that. Besides, I have nothing to win scoring points off of her. Or anyone really.

I just want to go back to bed. And dream of the Led lights again.